June 30, 2011
Morning Devotion w Theresa
Romans 12:9-21
“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil, cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. SHARE with God’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.”
Honor one another
KEEP your spiritual fervor
Share with Gods people who are in need.
PK “Our strength is not measured by how we do on the mountains, its how we persevere in the valleys!”!!!!!!!
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The Cross:
3 things Jesus accomplished on the cross. This is good stuff ppl…pay attention! ;)
1. He redeemed us-- he bought us back from the enemy
2. He reconciled us--brought us back into fellowship and favor of the father.
3. He RESTORED US--fully.
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Bfast and devotion was such a sweet time this morning. Kellie is better today.
We arrived back at the church this morning, and there was a lady changing clothes outside… I wonder….where did she sleep?
2 days till we begin our journey home. I thought I would be happy and don’t get me wrong I can’t WAIT to squeeze my family. It just doesn’t feel …finished yet. He’s not finished using us here yet. It doesn’t feel complete.
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At the Encounter
Almost time for the video. Man, I get this sick feeling in my tummy when I watch it. But I love how it moves your people.
Father, soften and stir your people. I pray they surrender completely to you. As Jesus said his “heart is ready”, Father prepare the hearts of your people. May they receive every ounce of goodness and FREEDOM you have for them. In Jesus name.
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“The grace you brought upon my life will return to you in PRAISE.
Redeemer---redeem my heart again
Savior---come and shelter me from sin.
Your familiar with my weakness, devoted till the END.
Redeemer, Savior, Friend.
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The Encounter was great. Praying these church leaders take what they have learned and they FREEDOM they have received and PASS it on down. In Jesus name!!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
June 29, 2011 continued. Observations in Africa
June 29, 2011 part 2
Jehovah Shalom The Lord IS Peace
At the Encounter…feeling much better. Im sitting in the back, watching 2 ladies outside. One is dressed in a pretty pink skirt, and white top. She is busy busy picking up, her home… I guess. It is a structure about 8 feet tall, no walls, tin roof, 6 pieces of wood holsing it up. She has a little pink brush…with the mirror on the back. She has no hair. Shaved to her scalp…and yet she combs and combs and combs. Diligently. Then, she turns the brush over and examines herself in the small mirror. She sees something not right with her teeth… she bends over and scrubs her teeth on the hem of her skirt.
Near Ms pretty in pink are 3 small children playing. The smallest is strapped…with a scarf or something like it …to the back of the bike. The oldest child is riding the bike from one side. Foot thru to reach the other pedal…but only on one side of the bike. Then the little girl is pushing the bike from the back…for good measure. Around and around they go.
There is a large mound of dirt right outside the church building. Several other children are just playing on the pile of dirt. Perfectly content.
What appears to me to be a mom, just picked her daughter up and hugged her tightly. The daughter may be 2 or 3. I see tons and tons of mothers caring for their children here. Nursing them, giving out letters to try and get just one American to help with finances. They carry them everywhere they go. On their backs. I LOVE that. I’d like to have another baby JUST to be able to do that!! ;) But, I honestly haven’t seen very much interaction…. Like one on one…. Emotional, love giving, kissing, hugging, playing with, type of thing. This mom has warmed my heart. It is a different culture. No better, o worse. Just different.
I dare my children to tell be they are bored… I will gather all games systems, ipods, phones, computers, even basketballs, footballs…. And give them a mound of dirt and a bicycle. I think that is really a perfect plan. J
Jehovah Shalom The Lord IS Peace
At the Encounter…feeling much better. Im sitting in the back, watching 2 ladies outside. One is dressed in a pretty pink skirt, and white top. She is busy busy picking up, her home… I guess. It is a structure about 8 feet tall, no walls, tin roof, 6 pieces of wood holsing it up. She has a little pink brush…with the mirror on the back. She has no hair. Shaved to her scalp…and yet she combs and combs and combs. Diligently. Then, she turns the brush over and examines herself in the small mirror. She sees something not right with her teeth… she bends over and scrubs her teeth on the hem of her skirt.
Near Ms pretty in pink are 3 small children playing. The smallest is strapped…with a scarf or something like it …to the back of the bike. The oldest child is riding the bike from one side. Foot thru to reach the other pedal…but only on one side of the bike. Then the little girl is pushing the bike from the back…for good measure. Around and around they go.
There is a large mound of dirt right outside the church building. Several other children are just playing on the pile of dirt. Perfectly content.
What appears to me to be a mom, just picked her daughter up and hugged her tightly. The daughter may be 2 or 3. I see tons and tons of mothers caring for their children here. Nursing them, giving out letters to try and get just one American to help with finances. They carry them everywhere they go. On their backs. I LOVE that. I’d like to have another baby JUST to be able to do that!! ;) But, I honestly haven’t seen very much interaction…. Like one on one…. Emotional, love giving, kissing, hugging, playing with, type of thing. This mom has warmed my heart. It is a different culture. No better, o worse. Just different.
I dare my children to tell be they are bored… I will gather all games systems, ipods, phones, computers, even basketballs, footballs…. And give them a mound of dirt and a bicycle. I think that is really a perfect plan. J
June 29, 2011
June 29, 2011
FIRST day of the 2nd Encounter and I am stuck in this hotel room sick!! I cannot believe this. I have been battling nausea for several days now. It’s so frustrating. I was in my room this morning…watching the team, minus Kellie & I (Kellie is also sick) outside my window. I could see them across the yard, they were under tents doing morning devotion. They began praying. I saw the girls huddled in a circle. I was praying here in this little bitty room, and my spirit was literally being drawn to them. I mean, I could not stand there any longer. I don’t remember putting my shoes on, or even walking to them… I just remember Theresa and Janice wrapping me up in the circle and the comfort I felt once smushed in the circle.
Honestly, I do not understand why God would burden my heart so deeply for these people and bring me all the way here and then let me be stuck in a room sick for the Encounter!! BUT, what I DO know is that HE didn’t cause the sickness… the devil is scared of something. He just keeps attacking. SO, I gotta press thru. The vision of doing an Encounter is what set my spirit blazing to come here.
Now, sweet, faithful Father in Heaven…come alongside me and USE this alone time to speak to me through your LIFE giving, BODY HEALING word.
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Wow… God, your fast…. (here’s what He gave me folks…. Like within a minute of praying)
Out of the book of Acts.
Pauls missionary adventures shows us the progress of Christianity. The gospel could not be confined to ONE corner of the world. THIS was a faith that offered HOPE to ALL humanity. We, too, should venture forth and share this heroic task to witness for CHRIST in ALL the world!!!
Acts 13:1-12 look it up. Heres some of the commentary and what I got from these verses:::
What variety there is in the churches. The common thread among these 5 men was their deep faith in Christ. We must never exclude anyone whom Christ has called to follow Him. Like the early church, if believers today do their part to reach out to ALL who are LOST, church congregations will eventually be comprised of people from different racial AND cultural backgrounds. We are most comfortable with those who are just like us. Clearly, at the root of these tendencies is the ugly sin of prejudice. The more we understand the gospel and embrace God’s version of the body of Christ, however, the more the more we will begin to transcend those differences!!! MORE than merely getting along, we will be able to honestly and authentically say from our hearts that we LOVE each other.
Father, Grow us. Help us to accept us, and point them to you. In Jesus name. Amen.
FIRST day of the 2nd Encounter and I am stuck in this hotel room sick!! I cannot believe this. I have been battling nausea for several days now. It’s so frustrating. I was in my room this morning…watching the team, minus Kellie & I (Kellie is also sick) outside my window. I could see them across the yard, they were under tents doing morning devotion. They began praying. I saw the girls huddled in a circle. I was praying here in this little bitty room, and my spirit was literally being drawn to them. I mean, I could not stand there any longer. I don’t remember putting my shoes on, or even walking to them… I just remember Theresa and Janice wrapping me up in the circle and the comfort I felt once smushed in the circle.
Honestly, I do not understand why God would burden my heart so deeply for these people and bring me all the way here and then let me be stuck in a room sick for the Encounter!! BUT, what I DO know is that HE didn’t cause the sickness… the devil is scared of something. He just keeps attacking. SO, I gotta press thru. The vision of doing an Encounter is what set my spirit blazing to come here.
Now, sweet, faithful Father in Heaven…come alongside me and USE this alone time to speak to me through your LIFE giving, BODY HEALING word.
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Wow… God, your fast…. (here’s what He gave me folks…. Like within a minute of praying)
Out of the book of Acts.
Pauls missionary adventures shows us the progress of Christianity. The gospel could not be confined to ONE corner of the world. THIS was a faith that offered HOPE to ALL humanity. We, too, should venture forth and share this heroic task to witness for CHRIST in ALL the world!!!
Acts 13:1-12 look it up. Heres some of the commentary and what I got from these verses:::
What variety there is in the churches. The common thread among these 5 men was their deep faith in Christ. We must never exclude anyone whom Christ has called to follow Him. Like the early church, if believers today do their part to reach out to ALL who are LOST, church congregations will eventually be comprised of people from different racial AND cultural backgrounds. We are most comfortable with those who are just like us. Clearly, at the root of these tendencies is the ugly sin of prejudice. The more we understand the gospel and embrace God’s version of the body of Christ, however, the more the more we will begin to transcend those differences!!! MORE than merely getting along, we will be able to honestly and authentically say from our hearts that we LOVE each other.
Father, Grow us. Help us to accept us, and point them to you. In Jesus name. Amen.
June 28, 2011 What if??
June 28, 2011
Morning Devotion w Bobby
Acts 5:13
Are you a believer?
Are you a believer AND a shaker for the kingdom of God?
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THEN, we visited Pastor James’ home and then Shaloms. We saw lots of children. The wa o flife here is just so completely opposite of anything I have experienced in Mashall County, ALABAMA!!! And again, so much need. Got some amazing shots…cant wait to get home so I can share my pictures!!
One thing I struggle with is the needs vs. the culture here. For example, we have seen so many children playing or sitting in the dirt with no clothes on. When we went to the market there was a great abundance of clothes. If, in America, well…lets just take it a little closer to home. When the tornadoes came through, we came together as a community to help meet one anothers needs. Now, I understand the need here is far greater than I can phathom…even, AFTER having seen it. But, there were literally people working in the marketplace and children, who looked like they belonged to the person running the little stands/shops with no clothes on. So, I reason, this is just not something they see as a necessity?? For the first week, after seeing barely clothed or naked children, I was kicking myself at not bringing more of my kids clothes with us to give. I guess now, Im just not sure how to feel. When I talk to mom’s here, the greatest need, their prayer requests are always the same.. And they have nothing to do with clothing or any material needs… They are 1. Physical healing 2. Finances for school fees and 3. For their child to increase in knowledge, to have a teachable spirit. Uhhhh, a little backwards to our culture… I am ashamed to say. But, maybe.. A little dead on??? Perhaps, a little more where our hearts and heads should be?? Don’t get me wrong… I’m not saying you’ll see Max & Kylee playing outside in the buff anytime soon…BUT, PARENTS:::: what if…we took just ONE of the days before schools starts back this year, and instead of spending the entire day going from store to store shopping for back to school clothes… what if… we spent that time covering.. I mean bathing our children in prayer FOR their health, provision, protection, for SOUND minds---the MIND OF CHRIST!! Just a thought.
Thru all the frustration and struggles of this trip…the high points, for me… have been like soaring thru the clouds. Revelation. Truth. Light. Conviction. Forgiveness. Grace. Love. Compassion. PASSION. And I have mentioned how much I absolutely adore my husband & children? From running water to the very ones we hold closest to our hearts… I, for one… take way too much for granted. And I am thankful for this time to re-evaluate my life, my priorities…my loves. Be Blessed friends. Yesu mari!!!!!! Jesus LOVE YOU! in African.
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Everyone is back today. Theresa says she is 100%! Meredith is struggling a little. I got to talk to Phillip for a few minutes this morning. Today is our day of rest. We are headed to shop!
Morning Devotion w Bobby
Acts 5:13
“Noone else dared join them, even though they were highly regarded people. Nevertheless, more and moremen and women believed in the Lord and were added to their number. As a result ppl brought the sick into the streets and laid them on beds and matsso that at least Peters shadow might fall ono some of them as he passed by. Crowds gathered also from the towns around Jerusalem, bringing their sick and those tormented by evil spirits, and all of them were healed.
Are you a believer?
Are you a believer AND a shaker for the kingdom of God?
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We went to the markets today today… the marketplace was a bust. We were looking for authentically made in Africa type things…and what we saw was an awray of backpacks and purses (ALL things we could have bought at Wal Mart) and items that were made in the USA or china!! It was kinda like a giant flea market…except no custom type items…think yard sale items…. Just when I was about to get discouraged Shalom took us to this little restaurant right down the road that also had a gift shop…all the items were made by widows and children from local orphanges. Jackpot. SO many beautiful pieces. We are scored!
Theresa, Don, Meredith, Nathan, Rod, Diana & I all went to an american cuisine restaurant for lunch. Yep, I was odd man out--Phillip Brooks, you will always come with me from now on--I miss yoU!!!!! It was fun though. Something I ate is not settling well… my tummy is in an uproar!
THEN, we visited Pastor James’ home and then Shaloms. We saw lots of children. The wa o flife here is just so completely opposite of anything I have experienced in Mashall County, ALABAMA!!! And again, so much need. Got some amazing shots…cant wait to get home so I can share my pictures!!
We came back to the hotel and some of the others went to visit the technical school.
One thing I struggle with is the needs vs. the culture here. For example, we have seen so many children playing or sitting in the dirt with no clothes on. When we went to the market there was a great abundance of clothes. If, in America, well…lets just take it a little closer to home. When the tornadoes came through, we came together as a community to help meet one anothers needs. Now, I understand the need here is far greater than I can phathom…even, AFTER having seen it. But, there were literally people working in the marketplace and children, who looked like they belonged to the person running the little stands/shops with no clothes on. So, I reason, this is just not something they see as a necessity?? For the first week, after seeing barely clothed or naked children, I was kicking myself at not bringing more of my kids clothes with us to give. I guess now, Im just not sure how to feel. When I talk to mom’s here, the greatest need, their prayer requests are always the same.. And they have nothing to do with clothing or any material needs… They are 1. Physical healing 2. Finances for school fees and 3. For their child to increase in knowledge, to have a teachable spirit. Uhhhh, a little backwards to our culture… I am ashamed to say. But, maybe.. A little dead on??? Perhaps, a little more where our hearts and heads should be?? Don’t get me wrong… I’m not saying you’ll see Max & Kylee playing outside in the buff anytime soon…BUT, PARENTS:::: what if…we took just ONE of the days before schools starts back this year, and instead of spending the entire day going from store to store shopping for back to school clothes… what if… we spent that time covering.. I mean bathing our children in prayer FOR their health, provision, protection, for SOUND minds---the MIND OF CHRIST!! Just a thought.
Thru all the frustration and struggles of this trip…the high points, for me… have been like soaring thru the clouds. Revelation. Truth. Light. Conviction. Forgiveness. Grace. Love. Compassion. PASSION. And I have mentioned how much I absolutely adore my husband & children? From running water to the very ones we hold closest to our hearts… I, for one… take way too much for granted. And I am thankful for this time to re-evaluate my life, my priorities…my loves. Be Blessed friends. Yesu mari!!!!!! Jesus LOVE YOU! in African.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
June 27, 2011
Fun things Ugandans say:
"surely"
Morning Devotion with Ramona.
Empowering emotions of Joy
Your attitude determines how effective you are.
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The village welcomed us warmly. Music intros and prayers. Rodney gave a little message, the music was beautiful. The instruments were amazing. handmade. They had cooked a big meal, but most were recovering or still sick. So the men folk ate and that was it. I met a deaf girl...she was so sweet. Theresa, Don, Ramona and Bobby were at the hotel sick. We were able to look inside a church... it was really cool...looked like a hut on the outside. We also got to see where they cook the meals. And again, so much need. I took a few pics of the children...its the funniest thing...they are stone faced when you are snappin the picture and then laughing hysterically when you show it to them!! they love it. As we left the village, there was an elderly lady sitting on the ground begging for food. :( Kellie asked Shalom to take her some crackers.
Its almost time for the net Encounter, the pastor at the village today had attended the first Encounter and told the village it was "life changing"... so glad he "got it"!!!!
The ride back was a little better ..they went a different way. we made it back in an hour and a half. I sat with Humphry on the way hom and in front of Kellie and Mere, made the ride go by faster. Humphry is a local school teacher...so i asked him 100 questions. Hearing about education in Uganda was interesting and passed the time. When we got back to the hotel, all our sick patients were up and moving around. Praise the Lord!!
The internet is not working again. :/ Well, it was when we got in, but its down again. I tried to call Phillip. no answer and now its down.
I went to sleep last night while we were skyping. He was grilling burgers .. i could hear the kids laughing and playing basketball. I just couldnt hang up. I didnt feel alone. it was great. I cannot wait to touch them!!! BUT... I haven't cried at all today!!! so, thats progress!!
I am sitting in my room writing and hoping the internet will come back up. Phillip has a picture of him and his dad as his screen saver. And again... it all comes rushing back...and i even said out loud to myself..."is he really gone???!!" It just doesn't feel possible or real that he will not be here for anymore bday parties---Max turns 4 Sunday.... or 4th of july's, christmas's, ball games, Easter egg hunts, vacations, he wont see them graduate, or marry, or have babies. He wont see Phillip fullfill the call God has on His life, or hold his first grandchild. He wont see Kim and Andrew have their first child.
"When pain surround us, the pain reminds this heart..that this is not our home." HEALING DOES come thru tears. I hope.
Peter, is a young man we met here from Bridge of Hope church. He is sweet, and funny. He sings in the choir, and loves to dance and paint. lol..he dances bigger when he knows ppl are watching...he's a ham!!He shared tonight that he was in school for a medical labratorist--what they call it here... He doesn't have the money for this semeaster, so he had to drop out. He is trusting God to proved the 300.00 he needs for the next one. I am believing with him.
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"surely"
"are you serious?"
"yes, please"praise the living God"
"sure"-- sounds like... "shuuuure"
you'd really just have to hear them say it. LOVE their accents. beautiful!!
Morning Devotion with Ramona.
Empowering emotions of Joy
Your attitude determines how effective you are.
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We are back at the hotel. We had a good day. Morning was rough. Nathan preached today. He did great. After that we headed to Aduku ?.. a viallage... that we were told was 30 mins away...but took almost 2 hours to get there. It was the roughest ride ever. Kellie and Mere had to move to the front of the bus... i got sick, but stayed still and Pastor Keith looked like he was gonna pass out when we got off the bus--he was NOT the right color!! Even for a white man. ;)
The village welcomed us warmly. Music intros and prayers. Rodney gave a little message, the music was beautiful. The instruments were amazing. handmade. They had cooked a big meal, but most were recovering or still sick. So the men folk ate and that was it. I met a deaf girl...she was so sweet. Theresa, Don, Ramona and Bobby were at the hotel sick. We were able to look inside a church... it was really cool...looked like a hut on the outside. We also got to see where they cook the meals. And again, so much need. I took a few pics of the children...its the funniest thing...they are stone faced when you are snappin the picture and then laughing hysterically when you show it to them!! they love it. As we left the village, there was an elderly lady sitting on the ground begging for food. :( Kellie asked Shalom to take her some crackers.
Its almost time for the net Encounter, the pastor at the village today had attended the first Encounter and told the village it was "life changing"... so glad he "got it"!!!!
The ride back was a little better ..they went a different way. we made it back in an hour and a half. I sat with Humphry on the way hom and in front of Kellie and Mere, made the ride go by faster. Humphry is a local school teacher...so i asked him 100 questions. Hearing about education in Uganda was interesting and passed the time. When we got back to the hotel, all our sick patients were up and moving around. Praise the Lord!!
The internet is not working again. :/ Well, it was when we got in, but its down again. I tried to call Phillip. no answer and now its down.
I went to sleep last night while we were skyping. He was grilling burgers .. i could hear the kids laughing and playing basketball. I just couldnt hang up. I didnt feel alone. it was great. I cannot wait to touch them!!! BUT... I haven't cried at all today!!! so, thats progress!!
I am sitting in my room writing and hoping the internet will come back up. Phillip has a picture of him and his dad as his screen saver. And again... it all comes rushing back...and i even said out loud to myself..."is he really gone???!!" It just doesn't feel possible or real that he will not be here for anymore bday parties---Max turns 4 Sunday.... or 4th of july's, christmas's, ball games, Easter egg hunts, vacations, he wont see them graduate, or marry, or have babies. He wont see Phillip fullfill the call God has on His life, or hold his first grandchild. He wont see Kim and Andrew have their first child.
"When pain surround us, the pain reminds this heart..that this is not our home." HEALING DOES come thru tears. I hope.
Peter, is a young man we met here from Bridge of Hope church. He is sweet, and funny. He sings in the choir, and loves to dance and paint. lol..he dances bigger when he knows ppl are watching...he's a ham!!He shared tonight that he was in school for a medical labratorist--what they call it here... He doesn't have the money for this semeaster, so he had to drop out. He is trusting God to proved the 300.00 he needs for the next one. I am believing with him.
I also had a sweet friend ask...with such a humble heart for a english version Bible. She loved the one we gave her. Wish I could do more for them.
June 26, 2011
Today was the best day!!! I started out feeling sick, so I missed Nathans devotion. :/.... my fan wouldn't work.Theresa is sicker. Its Sunday and I couldn't go to church. I slept for a little while, the it got so hot in here. THEN I left Phillip a message on skype..cause we got internet BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and just a few minutes later.... he skyped me!!! We talked for almost 2 hours!!!!! It was SO much better than any medicine!!! Well, i cried and cried.. he was so sweet...he said it felt like we were dating again. he kept telling me he missed me. I told him every story I could think of!! Oh man, it was so good! Everyonecame back from church and then went to eat. Meredith came back sick, so I stayed with her. We talked for a long time. Then it was time to go back to the church to minister to the children. Diana delivered the message and then we took all the kids outside and played soccer with them, and then gave out lollipops and treats. I had the 3-4 yr olds. Must have been 50 or more just in my group.I have never seen kids be so good for so long...especially in those numbers. There were around 600-700 i heard them say!!! I wasn't feeling well, but this was one of the days I was looking most forward to. It was fun! They begged for more. Followed us to the bus and begged to have their pictures taken.
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Got b ack to the hotel and skyped with Lauren...she was at church and before we knew it she had most of our families on so we could say hi. It was so much FUN! Then kellie, mere and I talked to Jackie for a while...oh my... i laughed and laughed... its so good for your soul. fun times.
June 25, 2011 continued---it was a BIG day!! FIRST Encounter in Uganda!!
**reminder, this is me back trackin the days we have been here out of my journal. Due to storms and no internet. This is from the 25th...not today. :)
Finished the cross session & it was powerful! All my ladies seemed to have break thru. 2 described it as a feeling of "relief". It was so great to see Lilly smile...really smile, and feel the peace flowing from Florence.
For lunch... ya ready for this?? I ate....goat!!! It was tasty... i took one bite, looked outside and saw all the little gots romaing around and couldn't eat anymore. :/ oh well, i can say i tried it!!
I called Phillip from Shalom's phone, we talked for literally, a few seconds... but it was SO amazing to hear his voice!!! Happieness from the inside OUT!! I took the phone to Agnes and Humphrey and let him say hi...then I lost him...BUT, thats ok...it totally refreshed me.
Then we headed back to the motel for a short rest...25 mins. Kellie, Don, Janice, Diana & I walked back from church. It was fun. We got to talk with some children at the school. I recorded them saying Hi to my kids, and Phillip and Sam , Jess and Levi and momma J. It was so sweet and I cant wait for them to hear it!
Right now, PK is preaching on Deliverence. I am praying for, huggin on, lovin on people in AFRICA...and Encounter is taking place right now in AFRICA!!! This is AMAZING!!!
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Longest day EVER! Happy, exciting, overjoyed and then frustraing, sad, hurt, a little mad, and totally exhausted.
The cross was amazing, amazing, amazing. Holy Spirit stuff not so much. I couldn't tell if it ws me, or them, or what. I just didn't feel peace. If it isn't from God, I don't want to be a part of it. On the way back, I heard a cpl of other ppl expressing similar concerns. I just didn't even want to talk about it though. I wanted to process what had happened. Got back to the hotel, we still didnt get our bags. They were expected by 4pm. It was my breaking point. I closed the door and pitched me a good ole 2 yr old tantrum. If I have to go back to Logan without the special item he sent with me I will be so broken... i dont even care about my camera stuff anymore. I didn't want to put mosquito spray on, or mess with the bug net, or wash my feet, wear dirty pj's. :/ I want to go home. I want to go home. I want to go home.
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I cried out.... and then there was a knock on the door... Pastor Keith and Pastor James with my suitcase..and EVERYTHING was there!! Praise GOD!! As I hugged up Logans special gift to me... I could feel his cheeks. I mean.. like he was right there!! Conviction and correction fell on me... I should hug them more... i mean, i do... i always have....my kids KNOW i love them. But, lately.... Logan has been wanting to hug me alot...like I'll be cooking and he comes in the kitchen and wraps his arms around me. I give him a quick hug.. and, it hurts me to admit it now....but, a quick hug and push him on. Same thing with Phillip.And,, oh... Phillip and his arms. So strong and warm. I hate not having him here at night...so lonely. God is my strength...thank you for bringing my suitcase safely to me...and thank you for wrapping me in your arms tonight. in jesus name.
Finished the cross session & it was powerful! All my ladies seemed to have break thru. 2 described it as a feeling of "relief". It was so great to see Lilly smile...really smile, and feel the peace flowing from Florence.
For lunch... ya ready for this?? I ate....goat!!! It was tasty... i took one bite, looked outside and saw all the little gots romaing around and couldn't eat anymore. :/ oh well, i can say i tried it!!
I called Phillip from Shalom's phone, we talked for literally, a few seconds... but it was SO amazing to hear his voice!!! Happieness from the inside OUT!! I took the phone to Agnes and Humphrey and let him say hi...then I lost him...BUT, thats ok...it totally refreshed me.
Then we headed back to the motel for a short rest...25 mins. Kellie, Don, Janice, Diana & I walked back from church. It was fun. We got to talk with some children at the school. I recorded them saying Hi to my kids, and Phillip and Sam , Jess and Levi and momma J. It was so sweet and I cant wait for them to hear it!
Right now, PK is preaching on Deliverence. I am praying for, huggin on, lovin on people in AFRICA...and Encounter is taking place right now in AFRICA!!! This is AMAZING!!!
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Longest day EVER! Happy, exciting, overjoyed and then frustraing, sad, hurt, a little mad, and totally exhausted.
The cross was amazing, amazing, amazing. Holy Spirit stuff not so much. I couldn't tell if it ws me, or them, or what. I just didn't feel peace. If it isn't from God, I don't want to be a part of it. On the way back, I heard a cpl of other ppl expressing similar concerns. I just didn't even want to talk about it though. I wanted to process what had happened. Got back to the hotel, we still didnt get our bags. They were expected by 4pm. It was my breaking point. I closed the door and pitched me a good ole 2 yr old tantrum. If I have to go back to Logan without the special item he sent with me I will be so broken... i dont even care about my camera stuff anymore. I didn't want to put mosquito spray on, or mess with the bug net, or wash my feet, wear dirty pj's. :/ I want to go home. I want to go home. I want to go home.
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I cried out.... and then there was a knock on the door... Pastor Keith and Pastor James with my suitcase..and EVERYTHING was there!! Praise GOD!! As I hugged up Logans special gift to me... I could feel his cheeks. I mean.. like he was right there!! Conviction and correction fell on me... I should hug them more... i mean, i do... i always have....my kids KNOW i love them. But, lately.... Logan has been wanting to hug me alot...like I'll be cooking and he comes in the kitchen and wraps his arms around me. I give him a quick hug.. and, it hurts me to admit it now....but, a quick hug and push him on. Same thing with Phillip.And,, oh... Phillip and his arms. So strong and warm. I hate not having him here at night...so lonely. God is my strength...thank you for bringing my suitcase safely to me...and thank you for wrapping me in your arms tonight. in jesus name.
June 25, 2011 Encounter recap... its a long one..but God is worthy!!
June 25, 2011
Morning devotion with Meredith
Unity
John 17: 20-25
“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those whi will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be ONE, Father, just as you oare one in ME and I am in you. May they also be in us, so that the world---Lira, Uganda AFRICA--- may believe that you have sent me. I have given them in glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one. I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world---AFRICA---know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Righteous Father, though the world--AFRICA--- does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them.”
Jesus prayed for unity, protection, and sanctity-holiness. That should give me confidence as I work for His kingdom.
Jesus’ great desire for his disciples was that they would become ONE. He wanted them unified as a powerful witness to the reality of God’s love.
Ephesians 4:1-5
As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle, be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep unity of the spirit through His bond of peace.
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I learned to say “I love you”--- Amari--pronounced “a-maree” and yesumari, “Jesus loves you” yesterday. Florence taught me.
The ladies in my group really seemed to grasp generation sin. Which is one of my favorites, as a mom…so important to really get it!!
Kellie said she struggled delivering her message on sexual purity, but she did amazing and you couldn’t tell. One of the women I prayed with confided that she and her son are HIV+. Her story is heartbreaking. She is precious and has many decisions to make. Praying for strength, wisdom and guidance..also provision for her sons education. So, my head is focused on sexual purity when my the next lady comes up from prayer. I am ready to pray for purity…when she explains, thru an interpretor, that she is “bewitched”. After getting more details, I learn that… she was married to a man, who was also married to another woman, common practice for non- believers in Africa. The 2nd wife put a curse on the first wife and now her body was filled with pain all the time. Honestly, I was soooo not prepared for this. Physically & emotionally… I was struggling with fatigue and missing my family something awful, but even spiritually, not prepared for this. Well, I took a deep breathe and cried out to God to fill my heart and mouth..to fill me up and HIM to minister FREEDOM to this lady thru me. And then…the Holy Spirit began to do just that. Praise GOD, that demon of bewitchment and any curse the enemy had plagued her with was addressed, bound in the name of Jesus and CAST into the PIT of HELL where it belongs!!!!!!!! Father, YOU are so GOOD and FAITHFUL!!!! THANK YOU for hearing me cry out, and for setting this woman free even though I was completely inadequate for the task. Your word IS true----in OUR weakness.. We are made strong THROUGH YOU--and YOU DO receive ALL the glory. We CAN do ALL--- I mean..casting demons kindof “ALL” things THROUGH CHRIST--- when we put our complete trust in YOU!!!!!! As soon as I started praying for “Ms. T”, your Holy Spirit fell, as she raised her arms…they began to tremble… lol, I was thinking… “holy smokes…new ground is about to BREAK in Ms. T’s life, and in mine!!” Father, I pray she WALK out her FREEDOM, she IS FREE of curses, pain and bewitchment. Satan has NO ground here anymore in the name of Jesus!!! THANK YOU for the POWER of the cross!!!
Inner healing was also amazing. I was able to sit and take pictures and take IN all the freedom, love and compassion my fellow team members were dishing out. 2 young boys, came in for prayer---nbot sure how they wound up there… BUT, they did… one of them had a deep father wound and the other received Christ!!!!! PTL!!!
I think I mentioned it was a different kind of Encounter!! ;) This was all the first day of the Encounter…oh, did I mention there were children at the Encounter…little ones… You Liberty folks will know how…”out of the box” that is for an Encounter, cellphones EVERYWHERE, people in and out constantly, and momma’s nursing their babies…right there while PK preached it UP!!! Lol. Curtis would be fired UP!!! Lol. We really had to adapt, be flexible and understand…this is their culture. While, at the same time, brainstorm on how to bring more order to the 2nd Encounter that is next week.
Oh, oh oh…AD Eric fell asleep at the wheel!!! Lol… we all got a good laugh out of that! And maybe a few pictures!!! ;)
Next was supper at a restaurant. Shalom sat with me. We talked about the children in her village. She asked me if I would like to help her, to help her with the finances to support her younger sisters school supplies. I was kind of surprised she asked. I don’t know…just being real. I had felt the burden to help her in some way from the first night we met. I just expected the Holy Spirit to give me direction. Maybe this was it?? Haha. The needs are so great everywhere…some people go around the world to get to the point they need money, some ask for prayer then it comes out they want money, and then some just flat out tell you. It is again, so overwhelming. They really see us as white people with great financial means. The truth is, yes….we all…even the ones of you living on government support, sleeping in a broke down house…with no cars, and no cash in your pocket… even YOU have more than they do. As best I can tell, there is no government feeding their children or providing any type of assistance when they cannot. But, my reality is, even though I KNOW that, and I see it with my eyes… I cannot support all the people who have approached me in the past few days. And it feels …sad, and frustrating, and like you really cant help them at all. Yes, they see us as “HOPE”…. I really wanted that to means…hope, because we can point them to Jesus…not because they think we can give them money. So, I have struggled with that in a big way. I mean, me being REAL with you is that, I struggle, Phillip and I struggle since I am not working anymore. God is faithful, He DOES provide, but it is hard. I don’t have money to just hand out for their school fees like I would really like to do. It takes every penny we have to support our own family right now. And there are times, when, even well meaning ppl make you feel, just because we do live in the USA, we have the means to pay, the 300.00 ( I think) per year for their schooling…which really is, so inexpensive… I know. But when you don’t have it… you just don’t. What this has done, is plant a seed in my heart for eternity. And I will pray for God to show me how to help them. I have tons of friends who CAN send 300.00 per year to pay for a childs education here… and it IS a real need. And I will absolutely assist the moment that God provides for that. But, there is a …pressure to help now. And that saddens me…and makes me feel like I can’t make a difference.. it’s a good thing, I KNOW….that whatever I try to do in my flesh, is no good anyways. Trust God.
Ok…on with the DAY---
We went back to the hotel and, I confess, shut in my room…all alone by myself, sadness took over again. I miss my husband. I miss my children. Still no way to contact them. It feels so helpless. I don’t want them to worry…or my babies to want to talk to me and not be able to. I had not anticipated this. It was the “one thing” I thought I couldn’t make it thru…. If I was not able to talk to or see them the entire time. Phillip and I even had our first bigger argument in a lonnng time, over that. I cant believe its really happening, that I cant talk to them. Truthfully, if from day ONE of this mission trip to Africa, I had known this was a REAL possibility, I would have never signed up. I know God knows better than me…and that He can see a bigger picture, he works ALL things out for my good…and that even this, He is going to use for His glory. I can envision---see, me using this as a testimony someday… so, even thru my tears, I do know He is at work… in the moment…though… it just hurts. Deeply.
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On a extremely positive note, I have not taken a Lunesta since last Sunday night. The night before we left!!! Am I gonna be set FREE from this?? I believe so!! ;)
Theresa is sick again today. It is just not the same without her here. We came to Bridge of Hope’s new building for the final day of the Encounter. We were almost 2 hours LATE starting!!! Curtis would NOT be happy ;) It was a good thing though. We were able to visit with the community. I met some boys who were playing soccer. We recorded a video message of them telling each of my kids “hi” by name. It was sweet and I can’t wait for them to hear it!!!
A lady grabbed me when we got to the church today and said her daughter wanted her to give me a letter. The letter explained how she (the daughter) was drawn to me the previous day and would like to stay in contact with me. They were “excited when I smile. She wants to be my “pen friend”. There was a photo included. It was sweet…but I had a … leary feeling in my spirit.
Oh, and I was standing in the church this morning, and a little girl… maybe 4, slid her hand into mine. It was the sweetest moment since I have been here. And made me long for my little shadow---Kylee.
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PK is preaching on the cross---RIGHT NOW and he is BRINGING IT!!! AWESOME!!! Wish our Liberty family could see him in ACTION!!!
Oh, they are handing out the nails!!!!
Holy Spirit, right now…saturate this place with your presence!!! RAIN in this place!!! Soften the hearts of your people and draw them to YOUR side. Help them completely SURRENDER everything to YOU in Jesus Name.
And--I AM laying down sleep aides and my struggle with the attack on my voice. Satan, I rebuke you in the name of JESUS! I bind you spirit of anxiety and insomnia in the name of Jesus and cast you to the pit of HELL!! And I RECEIVE YOUR PERFECT PEACE and comfort and SLEEP. I bind every attack of the enemy on my voice and body and I cast it OUT in the name of Jesus!! You are NOT welcome in my body and you WILL NOT steal the voice God gave me..I WILL LIVE to declare the works of the Lord and HE WILL receive the glory and praise!!!I receive complete healing, in the name of Jesus!! THANK YOU FATHER, that by the stripes you endured on the cross I can ask and receive healing In Jesus name.
Its video time… It always hurts me to watch….and I try to close my eyes…but, feel like I must keep them open. Its what you suffered..for me.
I just looked over at my friend Florence, and she too…has her eyes shut tightly, with tears flowing down her face. I hear weeping behind me… Father, move in your people.
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Morning devotion with Meredith
Unity
John 17: 20-25
“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those whi will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be ONE, Father, just as you oare one in ME and I am in you. May they also be in us, so that the world---Lira, Uganda AFRICA--- may believe that you have sent me. I have given them in glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one. I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world---AFRICA---know that you have sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Righteous Father, though the world--AFRICA--- does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them.”
Jesus prayed for unity, protection, and sanctity-holiness. That should give me confidence as I work for His kingdom.
Jesus’ great desire for his disciples was that they would become ONE. He wanted them unified as a powerful witness to the reality of God’s love.
Ephesians 4:1-5
As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle, be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep unity of the spirit through His bond of peace.
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I learned to say “I love you”--- Amari--pronounced “a-maree” and yesumari, “Jesus loves you” yesterday. Florence taught me.
The ladies in my group really seemed to grasp generation sin. Which is one of my favorites, as a mom…so important to really get it!!
Kellie said she struggled delivering her message on sexual purity, but she did amazing and you couldn’t tell. One of the women I prayed with confided that she and her son are HIV+. Her story is heartbreaking. She is precious and has many decisions to make. Praying for strength, wisdom and guidance..also provision for her sons education. So, my head is focused on sexual purity when my the next lady comes up from prayer. I am ready to pray for purity…when she explains, thru an interpretor, that she is “bewitched”. After getting more details, I learn that… she was married to a man, who was also married to another woman, common practice for non- believers in Africa. The 2nd wife put a curse on the first wife and now her body was filled with pain all the time. Honestly, I was soooo not prepared for this. Physically & emotionally… I was struggling with fatigue and missing my family something awful, but even spiritually, not prepared for this. Well, I took a deep breathe and cried out to God to fill my heart and mouth..to fill me up and HIM to minister FREEDOM to this lady thru me. And then…the Holy Spirit began to do just that. Praise GOD, that demon of bewitchment and any curse the enemy had plagued her with was addressed, bound in the name of Jesus and CAST into the PIT of HELL where it belongs!!!!!!!! Father, YOU are so GOOD and FAITHFUL!!!! THANK YOU for hearing me cry out, and for setting this woman free even though I was completely inadequate for the task. Your word IS true----in OUR weakness.. We are made strong THROUGH YOU--and YOU DO receive ALL the glory. We CAN do ALL--- I mean..casting demons kindof “ALL” things THROUGH CHRIST--- when we put our complete trust in YOU!!!!!! As soon as I started praying for “Ms. T”, your Holy Spirit fell, as she raised her arms…they began to tremble… lol, I was thinking… “holy smokes…new ground is about to BREAK in Ms. T’s life, and in mine!!” Father, I pray she WALK out her FREEDOM, she IS FREE of curses, pain and bewitchment. Satan has NO ground here anymore in the name of Jesus!!! THANK YOU for the POWER of the cross!!!
Inner healing was also amazing. I was able to sit and take pictures and take IN all the freedom, love and compassion my fellow team members were dishing out. 2 young boys, came in for prayer---nbot sure how they wound up there… BUT, they did… one of them had a deep father wound and the other received Christ!!!!! PTL!!!
I think I mentioned it was a different kind of Encounter!! ;) This was all the first day of the Encounter…oh, did I mention there were children at the Encounter…little ones… You Liberty folks will know how…”out of the box” that is for an Encounter, cellphones EVERYWHERE, people in and out constantly, and momma’s nursing their babies…right there while PK preached it UP!!! Lol. Curtis would be fired UP!!! Lol. We really had to adapt, be flexible and understand…this is their culture. While, at the same time, brainstorm on how to bring more order to the 2nd Encounter that is next week.
Oh, oh oh…AD Eric fell asleep at the wheel!!! Lol… we all got a good laugh out of that! And maybe a few pictures!!! ;)
Next was supper at a restaurant. Shalom sat with me. We talked about the children in her village. She asked me if I would like to help her, to help her with the finances to support her younger sisters school supplies. I was kind of surprised she asked. I don’t know…just being real. I had felt the burden to help her in some way from the first night we met. I just expected the Holy Spirit to give me direction. Maybe this was it?? Haha. The needs are so great everywhere…some people go around the world to get to the point they need money, some ask for prayer then it comes out they want money, and then some just flat out tell you. It is again, so overwhelming. They really see us as white people with great financial means. The truth is, yes….we all…even the ones of you living on government support, sleeping in a broke down house…with no cars, and no cash in your pocket… even YOU have more than they do. As best I can tell, there is no government feeding their children or providing any type of assistance when they cannot. But, my reality is, even though I KNOW that, and I see it with my eyes… I cannot support all the people who have approached me in the past few days. And it feels …sad, and frustrating, and like you really cant help them at all. Yes, they see us as “HOPE”…. I really wanted that to means…hope, because we can point them to Jesus…not because they think we can give them money. So, I have struggled with that in a big way. I mean, me being REAL with you is that, I struggle, Phillip and I struggle since I am not working anymore. God is faithful, He DOES provide, but it is hard. I don’t have money to just hand out for their school fees like I would really like to do. It takes every penny we have to support our own family right now. And there are times, when, even well meaning ppl make you feel, just because we do live in the USA, we have the means to pay, the 300.00 ( I think) per year for their schooling…which really is, so inexpensive… I know. But when you don’t have it… you just don’t. What this has done, is plant a seed in my heart for eternity. And I will pray for God to show me how to help them. I have tons of friends who CAN send 300.00 per year to pay for a childs education here… and it IS a real need. And I will absolutely assist the moment that God provides for that. But, there is a …pressure to help now. And that saddens me…and makes me feel like I can’t make a difference.. it’s a good thing, I KNOW….that whatever I try to do in my flesh, is no good anyways. Trust God.
Ok…on with the DAY---
We went back to the hotel and, I confess, shut in my room…all alone by myself, sadness took over again. I miss my husband. I miss my children. Still no way to contact them. It feels so helpless. I don’t want them to worry…or my babies to want to talk to me and not be able to. I had not anticipated this. It was the “one thing” I thought I couldn’t make it thru…. If I was not able to talk to or see them the entire time. Phillip and I even had our first bigger argument in a lonnng time, over that. I cant believe its really happening, that I cant talk to them. Truthfully, if from day ONE of this mission trip to Africa, I had known this was a REAL possibility, I would have never signed up. I know God knows better than me…and that He can see a bigger picture, he works ALL things out for my good…and that even this, He is going to use for His glory. I can envision---see, me using this as a testimony someday… so, even thru my tears, I do know He is at work… in the moment…though… it just hurts. Deeply.
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On a extremely positive note, I have not taken a Lunesta since last Sunday night. The night before we left!!! Am I gonna be set FREE from this?? I believe so!! ;)
Theresa is sick again today. It is just not the same without her here. We came to Bridge of Hope’s new building for the final day of the Encounter. We were almost 2 hours LATE starting!!! Curtis would NOT be happy ;) It was a good thing though. We were able to visit with the community. I met some boys who were playing soccer. We recorded a video message of them telling each of my kids “hi” by name. It was sweet and I can’t wait for them to hear it!!!
A lady grabbed me when we got to the church today and said her daughter wanted her to give me a letter. The letter explained how she (the daughter) was drawn to me the previous day and would like to stay in contact with me. They were “excited when I smile. She wants to be my “pen friend”. There was a photo included. It was sweet…but I had a … leary feeling in my spirit.
Oh, and I was standing in the church this morning, and a little girl… maybe 4, slid her hand into mine. It was the sweetest moment since I have been here. And made me long for my little shadow---Kylee.
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PK is preaching on the cross---RIGHT NOW and he is BRINGING IT!!! AWESOME!!! Wish our Liberty family could see him in ACTION!!!
Oh, they are handing out the nails!!!!
Holy Spirit, right now…saturate this place with your presence!!! RAIN in this place!!! Soften the hearts of your people and draw them to YOUR side. Help them completely SURRENDER everything to YOU in Jesus Name.
And--I AM laying down sleep aides and my struggle with the attack on my voice. Satan, I rebuke you in the name of JESUS! I bind you spirit of anxiety and insomnia in the name of Jesus and cast you to the pit of HELL!! And I RECEIVE YOUR PERFECT PEACE and comfort and SLEEP. I bind every attack of the enemy on my voice and body and I cast it OUT in the name of Jesus!! You are NOT welcome in my body and you WILL NOT steal the voice God gave me..I WILL LIVE to declare the works of the Lord and HE WILL receive the glory and praise!!!I receive complete healing, in the name of Jesus!! THANK YOU FATHER, that by the stripes you endured on the cross I can ask and receive healing In Jesus name.
Its video time… It always hurts me to watch….and I try to close my eyes…but, feel like I must keep them open. Its what you suffered..for me.
I just looked over at my friend Florence, and she too…has her eyes shut tightly, with tears flowing down her face. I hear weeping behind me… Father, move in your people.
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Tuesday, June 28, 2011
June 24, 2011 stil catchin up!!
Everything I saw on tv, the commercials with the pics of children and poverty... I am seeing inreal life. It was heart breaking and overwhelming. Their clothes...or lack there of, no shoes... sleeping on the dirt...flies on their faces... children roaming around everywhere..by themseleves..in the road ...alone. Cars, buses, motorcycles, bycicles, all headed straight atg each other...No traffic signs or lights...or yellow lines. Its the craziest thing Ive ever seen! And the goats and cows everywhere.
When we got back from the villages ... Diana asked us to sing at the womens meeting that night. We practices a cpl of songs. I am struggling so bad..satan really doesn't want me to use my voice. It is sooo frustrating!!Pressed thru and we did great. BUT... ya wouldn't know it by the reaction from the crowd. lol...the women of Uganda were not moved. Our girls were praising though. So then, Diana preached and it was great. She was on fire!! THEN, we washed ALL the Ugandan womens feet. Like Jesus did the disciples... get it?? ;) Around 100 women!!!!!!!!!!!! It was crazy!!! It was humbling.
WHEN WE GOT back to the hotel we still did not have runing water. Some of us had not had a shower since leaving the states. :/ Soooo, we packed up and left the hotel. BUT not without incidence. The hotel ppl were not happy. And the hotel is where the Bridge of Hope church holds their services. The hotel personnel told Pastor James if we left then everyone has to leave and not come back...meaning they could not have church there anymore...and the encounter was to start the next day!!!They wouldn't help with our bags...and we had only had 52 bags!!!!!!!!!!!! Pastor James took it all in stridfe...he said "God works ALL things out for my good."
Pastor James had taken us earlier that day to see a building and land nearby, they are hoping that building will be the future church home. We walked around the building praying. We prayed for favor with the owner last night and TODAY he agreed to let Pastor James rent it!!!
We got to our new hotel and it was nice. We ate an amazing meal. Rice, chipatas and pineapple.
I just wanted to get back to the room and talk to Phillip. I did and NOTHING worked. I couldnt facetime or skype. and my heart was broken. I couldnt sleep. I just wanted to talk to them. My cell phone...even though I am PAYING for an international calling plan...will NOT work! :( I started reading and then the electricity went out. There was a bad thunderstorm.
I woke up and tried to call Phillip again and nothing. I was so disheartened. And it was encounter day!! Devotion by Don was great!!!! Then Encounter was absolute chaos!!! Almost none of the women spoke english. People kept coming in late. I mean we started at 9am and ppl were still trying to come in at lunch time!!!We had to turn people away. We had 53 people go thru and it went well overall. . We did use interpretors. It was hard to tell if they were receiving anything Keith said.
Small group time seemed to bring break thru for everyone!!! My group was Helen a widow and womens leader in Uganda.
Lilly, a pastors wife. Joy Beatrice, a widow. Grace, a widow and Florence, who was also my interpretor. She goes to BOH and is in the choir.
They are all great women. But also, greatly opressed and in bondage.They are all so hungry for the things of God. To grow and learn. But, none of them even have a Bible. its so sad. In America...we have Bibles readily available...and lots of people dont ever pick one up. I am praying for BREAK THRU and FREEDOM!!!!
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Well, I fell asleep writing last night. Which, I guess was really a good thing. Kept my mind off the fact that I couldn't talk to my family. :( Everyone else was talking to theirs but me. I was waiting until Phillip got off work to talk to him and then skype lost my password and then the whole computer crashed...then I tried to get on Theresa's....and nothing. I tried to get a message to Phillip with theresa laptop but the a storm came thru and we lost power for the night. and now we have power but NO interneet :(. So, no communication with home. My hearts hurts so bad. I'm distracted. I can't even think about anything but them. AND we have an Encounter in a cpl of hours! I just want to go home. :( Please Lord, give me peace and comfort. And let me family know how very much i love them. Please comfort Phillip and give him peace that I am safe. I can't stand to think of him worrying. In Jesus name. amen.
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morning devotion with Don:
Mathew 28:18-20
"Surely, I am with you always, even to the end."
1 John 3
"Show in action the love you have in Jesus"
God is greater than our feelings.
Love one another, those who obey God's commands remain in fellowship with him.
The Nile River starts and flows thru Africa. So shall the word of God start in Africa and flow OUT.
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When we got back from the villages ... Diana asked us to sing at the womens meeting that night. We practices a cpl of songs. I am struggling so bad..satan really doesn't want me to use my voice. It is sooo frustrating!!Pressed thru and we did great. BUT... ya wouldn't know it by the reaction from the crowd. lol...the women of Uganda were not moved. Our girls were praising though. So then, Diana preached and it was great. She was on fire!! THEN, we washed ALL the Ugandan womens feet. Like Jesus did the disciples... get it?? ;) Around 100 women!!!!!!!!!!!! It was crazy!!! It was humbling.
WHEN WE GOT back to the hotel we still did not have runing water. Some of us had not had a shower since leaving the states. :/ Soooo, we packed up and left the hotel. BUT not without incidence. The hotel ppl were not happy. And the hotel is where the Bridge of Hope church holds their services. The hotel personnel told Pastor James if we left then everyone has to leave and not come back...meaning they could not have church there anymore...and the encounter was to start the next day!!!They wouldn't help with our bags...and we had only had 52 bags!!!!!!!!!!!! Pastor James took it all in stridfe...he said "God works ALL things out for my good."
Pastor James had taken us earlier that day to see a building and land nearby, they are hoping that building will be the future church home. We walked around the building praying. We prayed for favor with the owner last night and TODAY he agreed to let Pastor James rent it!!!
We got to our new hotel and it was nice. We ate an amazing meal. Rice, chipatas and pineapple.
I just wanted to get back to the room and talk to Phillip. I did and NOTHING worked. I couldnt facetime or skype. and my heart was broken. I couldnt sleep. I just wanted to talk to them. My cell phone...even though I am PAYING for an international calling plan...will NOT work! :( I started reading and then the electricity went out. There was a bad thunderstorm.
I woke up and tried to call Phillip again and nothing. I was so disheartened. And it was encounter day!! Devotion by Don was great!!!! Then Encounter was absolute chaos!!! Almost none of the women spoke english. People kept coming in late. I mean we started at 9am and ppl were still trying to come in at lunch time!!!We had to turn people away. We had 53 people go thru and it went well overall. . We did use interpretors. It was hard to tell if they were receiving anything Keith said.
Small group time seemed to bring break thru for everyone!!! My group was Helen a widow and womens leader in Uganda.
Lilly, a pastors wife. Joy Beatrice, a widow. Grace, a widow and Florence, who was also my interpretor. She goes to BOH and is in the choir.
They are all great women. But also, greatly opressed and in bondage.They are all so hungry for the things of God. To grow and learn. But, none of them even have a Bible. its so sad. In America...we have Bibles readily available...and lots of people dont ever pick one up. I am praying for BREAK THRU and FREEDOM!!!!
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Well, I fell asleep writing last night. Which, I guess was really a good thing. Kept my mind off the fact that I couldn't talk to my family. :( Everyone else was talking to theirs but me. I was waiting until Phillip got off work to talk to him and then skype lost my password and then the whole computer crashed...then I tried to get on Theresa's....and nothing. I tried to get a message to Phillip with theresa laptop but the a storm came thru and we lost power for the night. and now we have power but NO interneet :(. So, no communication with home. My hearts hurts so bad. I'm distracted. I can't even think about anything but them. AND we have an Encounter in a cpl of hours! I just want to go home. :( Please Lord, give me peace and comfort. And let me family know how very much i love them. Please comfort Phillip and give him peace that I am safe. I can't stand to think of him worrying. In Jesus name. amen.
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morning devotion with Don:
Mathew 28:18-20
"Surely, I am with you always, even to the end."
1 John 3
"Show in action the love you have in Jesus"
God is greater than our feelings.
Love one another, those who obey God's commands remain in fellowship with him.
The Nile River starts and flows thru Africa. So shall the word of God start in Africa and flow OUT.
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June 23, 2011 catch up..
June 23, 2011
We had such a busy, long, exhausting day today. Breakfast at the Grand Pacific hotel, devotion with Diana, then off to meet ALL the local government officials. The Chairman, Speaker, Assistant to the chariman..or maybe mayor?? Lol.. And then the Mayor and police chief.
THEN, we were OFF to our very first village. And, we were again greeted by women and children running beside the bus dancing and singing and hoopin and hollerin ;) We took our seats. Talked, prayed and introduced ourselves. The women sang and danced. THEN, they cut us lose. Meaning…we were swarmed with people. Shalom asked me to minister to the children. It was good… I was a little scared. I had never used an interpretor before. And I wasn’t prepared… or was I?? lol.. I’m always preaching to my kids!! And Diana had just sent me a scripture the previous week, about being ready at all times. So, I spoke on the power of prayer and how we can pray and expect to receive.
I met so many people and children. There was a little girl, I first saw when we were driving into the villge, she was wearing a yellow dress…and the sweetest smile. She came and sat in my lap almost the entire ‘program’. She layed her head on my shoulder…and my heart swelled. Kellie, Ramona and Meredith too, had kids on their laps. Ramona’s peed on her!! Ha. She took it all in stride. The kids loved her.
There were so many children …staring RIGHT into your eyes. At the first village it was as if they could wait for you to speak to them or touch them. They ALL wanted a “photo” taken of them. One lady pulled me to the side and asked me to pray for God to bring her a husband. She said God told her to ask me to pray for her. I prayed for her and then she asked for my pone number. Pastor James had warned us that people would ask. And told us not to give it out. That they would write to us asking for money. So, I did not give it to her…but I felt so bad. She kept saying that she just wanted to keep in touch with me so that she could let me know when God sent her a husband. I assured her I would continue to pray for her and left. L That’s all I could do.
One little girl had something wrong with her arm,. It looked like, open..drying blisters or something and her elbow down was purple. We met so many people. With such great needs. They were hungry for love and attention. For prayer and healing.
In the 2nd village the moment the introductions, prayers, songs and dance were over and we were released we were mobbed with people. I mean, I could move. I couldn’t turn around. I couldn’t see Meredith or anyone from my team. Just people grabbing me to hug me and talk. One lady handed me her baby. Her infant baby..and said “you take her”… I laughed..and hugged the baby up… I thought she was kidding… I turned and she was walking away. ?? I grabbed her and laughed it off and handed her baby back to her… but, what was she doing?
We had such a busy, long, exhausting day today. Breakfast at the Grand Pacific hotel, devotion with Diana, then off to meet ALL the local government officials. The Chairman, Speaker, Assistant to the chariman..or maybe mayor?? Lol.. And then the Mayor and police chief.
THEN, we were OFF to our very first village. And, we were again greeted by women and children running beside the bus dancing and singing and hoopin and hollerin ;) We took our seats. Talked, prayed and introduced ourselves. The women sang and danced. THEN, they cut us lose. Meaning…we were swarmed with people. Shalom asked me to minister to the children. It was good… I was a little scared. I had never used an interpretor before. And I wasn’t prepared… or was I?? lol.. I’m always preaching to my kids!! And Diana had just sent me a scripture the previous week, about being ready at all times. So, I spoke on the power of prayer and how we can pray and expect to receive.
I met so many people and children. There was a little girl, I first saw when we were driving into the villge, she was wearing a yellow dress…and the sweetest smile. She came and sat in my lap almost the entire ‘program’. She layed her head on my shoulder…and my heart swelled. Kellie, Ramona and Meredith too, had kids on their laps. Ramona’s peed on her!! Ha. She took it all in stride. The kids loved her.
There were so many children …staring RIGHT into your eyes. At the first village it was as if they could wait for you to speak to them or touch them. They ALL wanted a “photo” taken of them. One lady pulled me to the side and asked me to pray for God to bring her a husband. She said God told her to ask me to pray for her. I prayed for her and then she asked for my pone number. Pastor James had warned us that people would ask. And told us not to give it out. That they would write to us asking for money. So, I did not give it to her…but I felt so bad. She kept saying that she just wanted to keep in touch with me so that she could let me know when God sent her a husband. I assured her I would continue to pray for her and left. L That’s all I could do.
One little girl had something wrong with her arm,. It looked like, open..drying blisters or something and her elbow down was purple. We met so many people. With such great needs. They were hungry for love and attention. For prayer and healing.
In the 2nd village the moment the introductions, prayers, songs and dance were over and we were released we were mobbed with people. I mean, I could move. I couldn’t turn around. I couldn’t see Meredith or anyone from my team. Just people grabbing me to hug me and talk. One lady handed me her baby. Her infant baby..and said “you take her”… I laughed..and hugged the baby up… I thought she was kidding… I turned and she was walking away. ?? I grabbed her and laughed it off and handed her baby back to her… but, what was she doing?
June 22, 2011
Dear Lord, we made it to Lira, safely..THANK YOU! We dont have running water, thank y ou that YOU are our provider. I got to talk to Phillip and the kids last night, It was so overwhelming to see them and hear their voices. THANK YOU for internet connection!!!
So...we arrived in Entebbe Tuesday night. A mosquito bit me right as we walked out of the airport!!! The airline left one of mine and Kellies bags in Brussells!!! Thats frustrating. It has my camera batteries and cards..AND a special item Logan sent with me from him. It was such a sacrifice for him to send it... Plese Lord bring it back to me.
We left Entebbe in a big bus. The ride to Kambala was nice. Pastor James and Shalom met us at the airport. Diana was so excited. Grinning for ear to ear. I guess the ride was no more than an hour. We stayed in a hotel in Kambala. I struggled for peace. I couldnt tell though...if it was a Holy Spirit thing, or the fact that I was in a new country, and struggling with fatigue. I was staying, be choice, in a room by myself. And, I confess... i was scared. Shalom...my new African sister stayed with me. I was a little uneasy at first...but, women truely are the same all around the world...we stayed up till 3am talking and sharing our lives with one another. It was such a sweet time that I will never forget.
Morning came, and Shalom knelt beside the bed and prayed for us. She named almost everyone of the Liberty team members by name (whom she had JUST met) and prayed... I mean...calling down the heavens kinda prayer at 7am!!It was an amazing way to start the day!!! She is my Africa sister---LOVE her!!
Breakfast was outside near the busy street of Kambala. People were everywhere. Walking, riding bicycles, motorcycles (no helmets!!!) On the bicycles there would be up to THREE people smushed on!!! Including babies and kids! Its like a taxi system. So are motorcycles... and the women sit on the back sideways...againg with no helmets. I would SO fall right off---and really need a helmet!!! ha. Breakfast was boiled eggs, loaf bread--but sweet, bananas..served with hot milk and tea. It was all really good.
After stopppig to exchange our American money into shillings...we left off for our long ride to Lira. We stopped at a market...where I made my bery first African purchase::: a dt coke, cough drops AND some hillbilly gummy teeth for Max & Kylee.
The drive to Lira was over 5 hours. nice though. The scenery was captiving. I usually sleep on long drives.. I could not take my eyes off of the people, buildings, huts, cows ---literally...on the side of, and IN the road. There was so much to take in. Children everywhere. In the roadPeople do not have the ride of way here. You move or get hit. I wondered where all there parents are? We saw a BEAUTIFUL ummm, lake... or river...maybe?? There was a water fall. THEN, we saw monkeys!!! They were right beside our bus on both sides..everywhere.
We arrived to an amazing welcome by the women and children of Bridge of Hope Church. They line both sides of the road and followed alongside our bus singing, dancing and making this noise..umm, not a scream...not a yoddle.... but something in between. They make this noise as a way to show excitement. It was all beautiful... powerful and I think all 13 of us were weeping. Who are we.. to deserve such a welcome?? They were smiling so big!! We stepped off the bus to sooo many hugs and smiles. I cant wait for Phillip to see the video and pictures. It was amazing and overwhelming.
We were taken to our rooms and then immediately to the church. Diana introduced us, more hoopin and hollerin and yoddeling ;). Mommas nursing their babies right there in the middle of worship and message and prayers!! Now, THATS my kind of mommas!!!
Then we went outside to a big table ...where our team was seated as well as the leaders of Bridge of Hope Church. They had prepared a song for us in English and then they also performed an African song and dance.Beautiful.
Next we ate. Dinner was rice, chicken and pork, a veggie soup mixture, and the bread was like tortillas...only thicker...called Chipata's...sooooo good!! And the most amazing pineapple I have ever tasted. Logan would have LOVED it!!!
We went back to our rooms ..no running water for a shower. But, we did have power now. I got settled in and skuped my family. I layed down in the bed with my laptop and my husbands face and went to sleep. It was good.
Father, renew our strength this morning. In Jesus name. Amen.
So...we arrived in Entebbe Tuesday night. A mosquito bit me right as we walked out of the airport!!! The airline left one of mine and Kellies bags in Brussells!!! Thats frustrating. It has my camera batteries and cards..AND a special item Logan sent with me from him. It was such a sacrifice for him to send it... Plese Lord bring it back to me.
We left Entebbe in a big bus. The ride to Kambala was nice. Pastor James and Shalom met us at the airport. Diana was so excited. Grinning for ear to ear. I guess the ride was no more than an hour. We stayed in a hotel in Kambala. I struggled for peace. I couldnt tell though...if it was a Holy Spirit thing, or the fact that I was in a new country, and struggling with fatigue. I was staying, be choice, in a room by myself. And, I confess... i was scared. Shalom...my new African sister stayed with me. I was a little uneasy at first...but, women truely are the same all around the world...we stayed up till 3am talking and sharing our lives with one another. It was such a sweet time that I will never forget.
Morning came, and Shalom knelt beside the bed and prayed for us. She named almost everyone of the Liberty team members by name (whom she had JUST met) and prayed... I mean...calling down the heavens kinda prayer at 7am!!It was an amazing way to start the day!!! She is my Africa sister---LOVE her!!
Breakfast was outside near the busy street of Kambala. People were everywhere. Walking, riding bicycles, motorcycles (no helmets!!!) On the bicycles there would be up to THREE people smushed on!!! Including babies and kids! Its like a taxi system. So are motorcycles... and the women sit on the back sideways...againg with no helmets. I would SO fall right off---and really need a helmet!!! ha. Breakfast was boiled eggs, loaf bread--but sweet, bananas..served with hot milk and tea. It was all really good.
After stopppig to exchange our American money into shillings...we left off for our long ride to Lira. We stopped at a market...where I made my bery first African purchase::: a dt coke, cough drops AND some hillbilly gummy teeth for Max & Kylee.
The drive to Lira was over 5 hours. nice though. The scenery was captiving. I usually sleep on long drives.. I could not take my eyes off of the people, buildings, huts, cows ---literally...on the side of, and IN the road. There was so much to take in. Children everywhere. In the roadPeople do not have the ride of way here. You move or get hit. I wondered where all there parents are? We saw a BEAUTIFUL ummm, lake... or river...maybe?? There was a water fall. THEN, we saw monkeys!!! They were right beside our bus on both sides..everywhere.
We arrived to an amazing welcome by the women and children of Bridge of Hope Church. They line both sides of the road and followed alongside our bus singing, dancing and making this noise..umm, not a scream...not a yoddle.... but something in between. They make this noise as a way to show excitement. It was all beautiful... powerful and I think all 13 of us were weeping. Who are we.. to deserve such a welcome?? They were smiling so big!! We stepped off the bus to sooo many hugs and smiles. I cant wait for Phillip to see the video and pictures. It was amazing and overwhelming.
We were taken to our rooms and then immediately to the church. Diana introduced us, more hoopin and hollerin and yoddeling ;). Mommas nursing their babies right there in the middle of worship and message and prayers!! Now, THATS my kind of mommas!!!
Then we went outside to a big table ...where our team was seated as well as the leaders of Bridge of Hope Church. They had prepared a song for us in English and then they also performed an African song and dance.Beautiful.
Next we ate. Dinner was rice, chicken and pork, a veggie soup mixture, and the bread was like tortillas...only thicker...called Chipata's...sooooo good!! And the most amazing pineapple I have ever tasted. Logan would have LOVED it!!!
We went back to our rooms ..no running water for a shower. But, we did have power now. I got settled in and skuped my family. I layed down in the bed with my laptop and my husbands face and went to sleep. It was good.
Father, renew our strength this morning. In Jesus name. Amen.
Monday, June 27, 2011
June 21, 2011
Lira, Uganda continued….
June 21, 2011
Waiting to leave Belgium. Missing Phillip but have peace now. Thank you Lord for PEACE!! Flight from Chicago to Belgium was 8 hours! I sat with Meredith, so that helped. Seats uncomfortable and I could not sleep. This flight to Entebbe< Africa we are waiting to board is 8 ½ - 9 hours. It is 415 Bama time… 11:15 Belgium time. I am so ready to sleep. I sure wish Phillip was here so I could lay my head on his shoulder.There is comfort even resting on his shoulder. I never even realized it…until I don’t have it, looking at Meredith snoozing on Nathan and Kellie all cuddled up next to Keith. Makes my heart ache.
There have been other missionaries on every flight we have been on. That’s cool…all headed to different parts of Africa.
I wonder what my babies are doing… Last time I talked to Max he said “ What time you coming home mom?” He doesn’t understand, I don’t think….that I will be gone….for days. I didn’t get to talk to maw maw L before I left, so sad over that. Give me rest sweet Lord, renew my strength and sing over me while I sleep. Protect & comfort my family and thank you for keeping me & my friends safe on this journey. In Jesus Name, AMEN.
June 21, 2011
Waiting to leave Belgium. Missing Phillip but have peace now. Thank you Lord for PEACE!! Flight from Chicago to Belgium was 8 hours! I sat with Meredith, so that helped. Seats uncomfortable and I could not sleep. This flight to Entebbe< Africa we are waiting to board is 8 ½ - 9 hours. It is 415 Bama time… 11:15 Belgium time. I am so ready to sleep. I sure wish Phillip was here so I could lay my head on his shoulder.There is comfort even resting on his shoulder. I never even realized it…until I don’t have it, looking at Meredith snoozing on Nathan and Kellie all cuddled up next to Keith. Makes my heart ache.
There have been other missionaries on every flight we have been on. That’s cool…all headed to different parts of Africa.
I wonder what my babies are doing… Last time I talked to Max he said “ What time you coming home mom?” He doesn’t understand, I don’t think….that I will be gone….for days. I didn’t get to talk to maw maw L before I left, so sad over that. Give me rest sweet Lord, renew my strength and sing over me while I sleep. Protect & comfort my family and thank you for keeping me & my friends safe on this journey. In Jesus Name, AMEN.
Time to play catch up.
Well, the lack of information and details on our trip is due to no internet. We have also had some time without power and running and water.
I have been journaling, as always.... so, I think I will do a recap of the days we have spent here so far directly from my journal. Hope you are inspired to GO make a difference.
love, j.
I have been journaling, as always.... so, I think I will do a recap of the days we have spent here so far directly from my journal. Hope you are inspired to GO make a difference.
love, j.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Our Uganda Journey has BEGUN!
Good Morning from Lira, Uganda AFRICA!!! Our journey here was long. And Im gonna tell ya all about it...but let me say.... Im gonna give it to ya straight... I am a US citizen and all that that implies. I will be real...so dont judge me till you live it.
Leaving my family Monday morning was the one of the hardest things I have ever done. Making the decision to GO in Feb., was easy.. I knew God told me to GO...HE answered and SOLVED every SINGLE concern I had about going before I could even give Him to full complaint...example... "God, the kids are in school...there is NO way I have chldcare for 2 weeks!" answer...trip in the summer. example... "God, I dont have 3500.00...what are you thinking?... God "4,000.00 is nothing to me". example " God, I dont have anyone I could ask to take care of my kids for 2 weeks.." GOd "Trust me"...then HE told me exactly who would keep them...and old friend, i had not seen in a while and who would be WELL into her 3rd trimester when we would leave in June. ...how would I even ask her? Hadnt talked to her much or seen her in months and months. That day....walking into Wal Mart---who do you think God caused me to walk RIGHT into as soon as we walked into the doors. My friend, Celeste....who HE appointed to care of my kids while i was away. It was confirmation. and it was easy. The biggest need...i thought at the time...was the financial need. And GOD provided that...in the form of 29 very special people...in 9 days. NINE days. again, confirmation. I struggled with so much over the next couple of months.... sickness, crying over not hearing my kids voices for 2 weeks, not touching my husband.... cars breaking down, the Tornado's ripping thru our communities...and then, my father in law died on June 3. 2 weeks before we were to leave. It was truely devestating. I was broken thinking of leaving my kids and husband and mother in law alone with their grief. I'm a mom... i fix them. or, I try. I couldn't fix this. I had to let it go and trust that God...our true comforter and only REAL "fixer" would comfort them and mend their broken hearts. I did not want to GO to Africa. I was torn...and only wanted to be with my family. In my Spirit...the CALL from God, on my life to "GO" had not changed. Walking the instruction OUT, being obedient...DYING to my flesh...that was hurt and screaming at God, was the hardest thing. Recommiting. I have NO doubt why God answered those initial concerns so quickly...so I would be able to look back and KNOW...that I know...that I know...that this WAS my time to GO. But, honestly....it didn't help the hurt.
OK....I have ran out of time and i didnt even get to the GREAT stuff!!!! :/. time for breakfast... pretty Kellei & Mere have come. to be continued.... love, j.
Leaving my family Monday morning was the one of the hardest things I have ever done. Making the decision to GO in Feb., was easy.. I knew God told me to GO...HE answered and SOLVED every SINGLE concern I had about going before I could even give Him to full complaint...example... "God, the kids are in school...there is NO way I have chldcare for 2 weeks!" answer...trip in the summer. example... "God, I dont have 3500.00...what are you thinking?... God "4,000.00 is nothing to me". example " God, I dont have anyone I could ask to take care of my kids for 2 weeks.." GOd "Trust me"...then HE told me exactly who would keep them...and old friend, i had not seen in a while and who would be WELL into her 3rd trimester when we would leave in June. ...how would I even ask her? Hadnt talked to her much or seen her in months and months. That day....walking into Wal Mart---who do you think God caused me to walk RIGHT into as soon as we walked into the doors. My friend, Celeste....who HE appointed to care of my kids while i was away. It was confirmation. and it was easy. The biggest need...i thought at the time...was the financial need. And GOD provided that...in the form of 29 very special people...in 9 days. NINE days. again, confirmation. I struggled with so much over the next couple of months.... sickness, crying over not hearing my kids voices for 2 weeks, not touching my husband.... cars breaking down, the Tornado's ripping thru our communities...and then, my father in law died on June 3. 2 weeks before we were to leave. It was truely devestating. I was broken thinking of leaving my kids and husband and mother in law alone with their grief. I'm a mom... i fix them. or, I try. I couldn't fix this. I had to let it go and trust that God...our true comforter and only REAL "fixer" would comfort them and mend their broken hearts. I did not want to GO to Africa. I was torn...and only wanted to be with my family. In my Spirit...the CALL from God, on my life to "GO" had not changed. Walking the instruction OUT, being obedient...DYING to my flesh...that was hurt and screaming at God, was the hardest thing. Recommiting. I have NO doubt why God answered those initial concerns so quickly...so I would be able to look back and KNOW...that I know...that I know...that this WAS my time to GO. But, honestly....it didn't help the hurt.
OK....I have ran out of time and i didnt even get to the GREAT stuff!!!! :/. time for breakfast... pretty Kellei & Mere have come. to be continued.... love, j.
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